Oh the memories

Oh my beloved, I never realized how much you spoiled me until you left for good. I mean, when we weren't together, I realized it then. But now that you are completely gone, I never realized to what extent it was.

I mean of course I miss your company period, but even the little things I will appreciate for life.
I miss you opening doors for me everywhere we went. I miss you massaging me every night when I didn't ask you to, and you didn't expect one in return. I remember when I said let's give each other one, and we should spend the same amount of time for each other, but when you gave me mine you spent more time giving one to me. I told you that you didn't have to keep going, but you wanted to, and that you didn't care how long it took... I especially miss falling asleep to you giving me one. I miss when you would give me kisses all over, to relax me from a hard day at work. I miss you always taking me out to eat, because you knew how much I loved it. And you wouldn't care how often we went out, or what I ordered. You always went everywhere with me. Even if you didn't feel like going, or didn't like where we were headed . You never complained or rushed me. I was so happy when you came and saved me from the Allen outlets when my mom kidnapped me. Without hesitation you were willing to drive so far just to pick me up and rescue me.

On occasion I would be too lazy to get out of bed to brush my teeth. I didn't have to ask you, immediately you would go get a cup of water, and my toothbrush with toothpaste on it and bring it to me. I miss you washing the dishes for me, when I never told you to. You always put my needs before yours. You would take me to work, or pick me up and it didn't seem to bother you or be of inconvenience. You would always come visit me during lunch. Whenever we went grocery shopping, you would carry all the heavy groceries and have me carry very few. When I moved with you to Denton, you didn't want me to give you any money to help with the bills. I loved how you would wait until I was asleep, before you went to sleep. Even though it only took me seconds to do so, when it took you at least 30 minutes. You were my bug killer! How am I supposed to kill bugs now? I remember one time you were asleep, and I went to the restroom, and there was a bug, and I woke you up to kill it. You didn't ignore me, or get frustrated with me, you slowly got out of bed, killed it, gave me a kiss, laughed a bit, and then went back to bed.

Sigh.

There is so much more that you did for me. And I am so grateful to have experienced such bliss. I'm glad that we spent every second we could with each other. I always felt bad whenever I would tell my friends that I wanted to spend time with you, instead of hang out with them. But after being put in this situation, I don't regret it one bit. I only wish we could've spent more time together.

I can't wait to drift with you in heaven. I loves you bunches...
Kristine